scared

ok so here is the deal...i really dont want to write today lol i am actually kinda scared. I think i have a good topic yet im still scare. i think i will mess it up because i am not that great of a writer. if you read my blog you should already know that. i talk more in "aim" if you would say or like text message language lol so this is probably going to be really hard for me. Plus english is not my best subject so that wont help me out much either. I really enjoy venting when im scared so i guess blogging today was a good idea that way i can freak out on this thing instead of in person and everyone around me think i am a total loser for freaking out about writing a stupid essay(something that is probably really easy to them). Im the kind of person that doesnt what she is good at and sticks with that. i dont mess with things that i cant do...i normally get someone else to help me out. like with computers or spelling or whatever. i normally dont try, just ask, but in school i really cant do that lol. Teachers think i would be cheating and that is not good to be caught cheating and get a zero, esp when i have HOPE to maintain!!!!!!!! well i guess we all have to face our fears sooner or later and i will face mine in about a min. or so!! so wish me luck!!